Goodbye Zman

Still fresh in my memory, as soon as our clinical instructor said we could go home and rest, because it was the last day of our clinical rotation in that place, I ran along the corridor and exactly in 2minutes I was inside the tricycle. Then, I promised to myself I would never ever go back to that place again.

Fastforward.

March 2009. Desperate enough to find a hospital to work for, I contacted a friend to help me out. And usual, “Padrino System” never failed me. New acquaintances. New environment. Everything was new-fangled for me even the gossips that I fished out there. But since, I value my new job I concentrated more on learning new things.

After several weeks, I was asked to do something. Something that relates to BLS, ACLS, IVT trainings and some seminars that will soon be conducted there. At first it was okay, because those trainings are familiar to me. But as days passed by, he delegated me more of his so called “special projects”. Vacancies or jobs are created for the protégés. It sounds so familiar, right? Never I expect he’ll promote me as Head of the Nursing Service. Was I happy? NOT AT ALL. (The moment that he said “head of the nursing office” – it is literal to say na mag-iisip ka para sa mga special projects niya dahil una pa lang walang tao sa nursing service office, kundi ang new-apponited head.. at ako yun”)

The truth is, okay na ko as a volunteer-floater nurse. I can really say na nananahimik ang buhay ko, nagulo pa. Mas lalo pa nung dinelegate sa akin yung work to put up a new school. (nursery to college, yan ning). That’s why my last week was a rollercoaster. To make the story short, as soon as I got the DECS form GPR 3 from DepED (requirements for a proposal for initial permit of a new school), hindi ko talaga siya binasa.. yung 4 pages na long bond paper na requirements.. hindi talaga. Nung hiningi niya sa akin yun’ para magdelegate ng gagawin, nagdilim ang mga mata ko when I was asked to do the Philosophy, Mission, Vision ng school. (Like HELLO? Ang alam ko nga lang yung sa perps, hindi ko pa memorize, tas papagawin mo ko. Magtatayo na lang ako ng school ko no!)

Acshulee, madami pang stories behind that. It’s too long to tell. I’m just really glad that it’s over. I sent my letter of resignation this morning.

I learned so many things there aside from the nursing experience per se, (

1) Never let anyone to outsmart you.

(2) It’s never easy to do the things you hate but it’s more difficult when you do things you don’t have any idea with.  Para kang nakatinigin sa box ng explosives and yet hindi mo alam kung ano ang gagawin mo dito para hindi sumabog. BOOM!

(3) Karma strikes like lightning and the fastest is 3 seconds.

(4) Cursing people is never bad. Believe me.

(5) When you don’t really know what to do, and you have tried so many interventions yet it didn’t work… close your eyes… inhale and exhale… and say ” MOTHER EARTH, UNIVERSE CONSPIRE WITH ME… I need this (state your plea) “

~ by ickaissimo on April 28, 2009.