Angel of Death

For Cristina
For Ate May.
For the man who died in front of our house.
For Mr. Flores, our neighbor.
For my uncles, grandfathers and grandmothers.

They are gone forever.

They made me realize how short life is.

When one reaches its end, he’ll be placed in a coffin and buried six feet under. Soon, he’ll be eaten up by soil, be part of it, a once precious life turned into non living, faded away by time and disregarded by loved ones.

“..afterwards saw death as my daily companion, who is always by my side, saying: “I will touch you, but you don’t know when” Therefore live life intensely as you can.”

- Paulo Coelho, Like the flowing river

The thought of death itself scares me. Who wouldn’t be? However, it’s scarier when the angel of death appears before me and says “Your time is up” while holding with him an hourglass. I may have start bargaining about my life right there and then and plead to my sincerest if  the angel of death could give me more minutes to bid my last goodbye to the ones I loved.

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When I cared for someone who is diagnosed with hypoxic ischemic encephalopathy, I empathized how he suffers from his disease. He’s bed ridden. His eyes lock in blank stares – a look that goes right through you. He can’t communicate. He can’t move though he only makes reflex activities that mimic conscious activities. It’s much like death for him everyday and for his family – doubles the agony for such unseen hopes.

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Death comes ashore
… when someone breaks your heart.
… when a mother longs for his son’s love.
… when people find themselves trapped and storm surge comes sweeping through.
… when a father can’t feed his 10 children thrice a day.
… when someone feels he’s a loser.
… when someone doesn’t lose the pain instead he’ll just get used to it.

The angel of death kisses your heart and feeds on it until it dies… and all that is left is black and hatred.

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See, death is almost everywhere here on a living dead’s place. So, how does one survives?

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maybe it’s LOVE.

~ by ickaissimo on November 3, 2008.